There's Always Tomorrow

BBBBIIIIIGGGG yawn from Cooper.

Even he's bored from my lack of blogging.

Will be updating tomorrow.

Stay tuned ...

Coming Soon ...

My computer is about to get smacked across that face.

That's right - my computer has a face.

Trying to post a blog with pictures and it keeps shutting down.

Will try again tomorrow when I'm not feeling so violent ...

:)

Field Day

Sorry for the lack of blogging.

It's the last week of school.

Need I say anything else?

Here's a cute picture from Field Day today.

Jay & I organize all the volunteers and activities.

We're exhausted.

I'm going to sleep for days. :)

A Re-Cap of Anniversary #1

Jay and I had such a fabulous time on San Juan Island.

Thank you VERY MUCH to my aunt and uncle who let us use their place to celebrate our 1st anniversary!

Here are a few of my favorite pictures from the weekend.

My aunt and uncle's beautiful cabin.

They call it a cabin, I call it a home ...

Looking for rocks.
One of my favorite things to do on a beach ...

The view from their house ...

Err ... a different beach.
I can't remember the name, but Jay would remember ...

Eating lunch at Roche Harbor.
Looking thrilled about the fact that I left my hairdryer at home.

We celebrated our anniversary with a FABULOUS dinner at the Duck Soup Inn.

If you're ever on San Juan Island, it's a MUST EXPERIENCE.

The food is all local and fresh.

And Gretchen the chef is amazing!

We apparently didn't take any pictures of our 2nd day up there.

Maybe because all we did was read, watch movies, nap and eat.

Perfect.

Wordless Wednesday

The End (of the school year) Is Near

The kids are exhausting me.

No joke.

Behavior is OUT OF CONTROL.

And I am running out of positive reinforcement.

I've been reduced to everyone putting their heads down and visualizing a class that follows directions.

Yep.

I went there.

Usually only do that a few times a year.

Last week we did it 3 times in a week.

Last night I slept for 13-1/2 hours.

Only 8 more days of school.

I can do this.

I KNOW I can do this ...

because I re-read posts like THIS and THIS ...

and think "Oh yah, I feel like this every year."

Here's to a smooth-sailing 8 days.

Hey ... a girl can dream, right!?!

Solitude & Contentment

A couple pictures taken from my cell phone yesterday.

It's so quiet and peaceful up here ... we may never come back.

Happy Anniversary

Today is our 1 year anniversary.

Boy have we been through a lot together already.

I could not ask for a better partner to share life's ups and downs.

In honor of our anniversary,
I'd love to share my vows
and some of my favorite pictures from the day.

I promise to be faithful to you.
I willingly support your dreams and encourage your passions.
I promise to help shoulder our challenges and nurture you in times of need.
I promise to always hold you in the highest regard.
I gladly love you above all others.

You have shown me what love feels like and for that I will always be thankful.

On top of the vows I make to you today, I vow to always appreciate how lucky I am to have someone who makes me feel the way you do.

I will lead my life in light of these vows, and I promise to try as hard as I can to make you feel as special as you make me feel.

I look forward to living a life of love, integrity, honesty and laughter with you.

I am thankful to be your friend and honored to be your wife.

- I love you -
- Happy Anniversary Babe -

Chapters

Yesterday was such a blessed day.

We both worked all day.

Then came home to celebrate the life of our baby.

We lit a candle, read our letters, planted our letters in the pot, then planted our tree.

It was intimate and perfect.

There was laughter and tears.

Hugs and kisses.

There was also a HUGE sense of closure.

We both felt lighter afterwards.

Like there was room for hope and new beginnings.

Like we had closed one chapter
(though we'll never forget it)
And our hearts are ready for the next.

During dinner, our doorbell rang -
and these were sitting on our doorstep.

Then another neighbor came over

and delivered this scrumptious Lemon Tart

We received so many hugs, and well wishes,
and emails yesterday.

We truly felt lifted by prayer -
and surrounded with love.

- Thank you -
to everyone for the love and support
you showed us yesterday.

We are so blessed.

The candle stayed lit -
until well after we were asleep.

And burnt itself out in the night.

Let the next chapter begin ...

June 2nd

Hello June 2nd.

We have been awaiting and expecting your arrival.

Pun intended.

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.“ Isaiah 41:10

Invisible

I've been struggling with invisibility since the end of October.

I was pregnant, but not showing yet.

Invisible.

I had a miscarriage with nothing to show for it.

Invisible.

I am a mother with no child to hold.

Invisible.

I have a huge hole in my heart that no one can see.

Invisible.

I carry my pain like an over sized purse.

Invisible.

Tomorrow is my due date but I will not go into labor.

Invisible.

However, in my invisibility, I know I am not alone.

There are hundreds of thousands of women who have walked this road before me.

I will not drown in my invisibility.

I will prosper and be healthy.

I anticipate tomorrow will be hard.

Jay & I will celebrate and mourn.

Together, we are not invisible.

And either is our baby.

“As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.” Ecclesiastes 11:5