It's OK

I'm having a rough emotional week.

I continue to be deeply saddened by my miscarriage.

Not so much mad anymore.

Or asking why.

Just sad.

Sad.

Hard to see pregnant women.

I want to be pregnant too.

I was pregnant.

I want to still be pregnant.

And I keep getting weekly pregnancy email updates.

To thebump.com and whattoexpect.com ... I AM NO LONGER 14 WEEKS PREGNANT.

OK?

Your emails are like salt in my wounds.

And so I have changed my due date (on those websites) back to "Trying To Conceive."

And well ... that just sucks.

My time will come.

I know that.

This time wasn't right.

I know that.

But still ... sadness persists.

And that's just OK.

And this too ... shall pass.