So ... here's where I am.
The realization that I'm not pregnant anymore is starting to really sink in.
And I'm left with a lot of sadness.
I'm finding it hard to create positivity today.
When I get dressed, I feel fat.
I have a chubby belly.
A belly meant for a sweet little baby.
But now it's empty.
I feel like I have nothing to show for pounds gained.
My abdomen hurts from my D&C.
I feel like I've done a million sit-ups and side crunches.
But for no reason really.
Not because I worked out.
Not because a baby is in there and tendons are stretching.
I just feel really empty.
And really, it's not about the weight or sore abdomen.
Those are just symptoms and reminders.
It's what they represent.
I know God will heal me.
Time will pass and I'll feel better.
But not today.
Today, I will honor my feelings.
And feel empty.
And that's okay.