Monday, November 8, 2010

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feeling jealous of others tonight and sorry for myself.

i hate it when i feel this way.

blech!

2 comments:

Justin and Pam Odom said...

Thank you for your honesty. We don't actually know each other but I used to go to OCC and think I got hooked onto your blog through Jodie or the McPhersons. Anyway, I am feeling the same way tonight. I hate feeling this way because really, how fortunate am I in so many ways. And yet, other people's lives so often look better. I am sorry for your miscarriages and those feelings you have shared. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for almost 2.5 years now, fertility testing came up empty- "nothing's wrong." I look at so many people with children and question why not us. I is a hard place to be but you remind me I am not alone. I don't know if you've heard of or read Hannah's Hope by Jennifer Saake, but I recommend it. It gives a Christian perspective on dealing with feelings of loss, anger, jealousy, etc when it comes to miscarriage, infertility or adoption loss. Redirects you to God's plan. I have read it and plan to do so again, it gave me so much comfort. Thanks again for the words and emotions you share on this blog.

Kelly M said...

Ah Buddy, I'm so sorry! If I could change things for you, I sure would! We're praying for you, for sure!