Thursday, May 15, 2008

Grumpy-Pants


So ... I've been in a slump lately.

I think it started last weekend when I got the flu.

Yesterday, I SWEAR I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

Really. I totally woke up grouchy. Nothing had even happened yet!

How is the possible?

What's bugging me ...?
Money worries?
Turning 32 this weekend?
Job stresses?
Relationships?

I've been really stressed lately because all my homework for my night-class is due next week. I way stress myself out with stuff like that. Jay swears I'm going to give myself a panic attack one of these days.

You know when you're 'having one of those days' and the littlest thing feels so big? That's my day, every day this week. Little stuff feels so big and heavy. ARGH!!!

I totally recognize these characteristics and can usually snap myself out of it ... but this week ... I just can't shake it off.

Perhaps I need a trip to my counselor! It's amazing when you sit in a room with someone for an hour and they listen ... and you finally hear yourself.

I arrived to work early yesterday and spent a 1/2-hour trying to give myself an attitude adjustment in my empty and dark classroom. It didn't help. It takes a lot of energy to be my usual patient self with my students this week. I look forward to being by myself each evening and crave the quiet comfort of my house.

I'm not sure what's going on. I'm going to work on excepting my mood and honoring my feelings.

I am setting an intent to stop resisting my feelings and perhaps with my exceptance, I will feel better.

Plus, I always think: the bad days, make the good days that much better!

3 comments:

Linda Vujnov said...

Inevidible and normal. You'll shake it eventually. I totally get this though. I think someone needs a vacation!

Ashley Julian said...

I'm sorry you're not quite "right."


Happy Birthday and I hope it's a good one!!

Jodie Howerton said...

Oh, sister. I hate those grumpy seasons!. OK, maybe not hate...I end up learning from them in the long run but, man are they hard to get through...

Want to come over for some Merlot and a movie?

I also recommend a non-sick day off and chocolate covered peanut butter pretzels from Trader Joes.