Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Deep In Thought

I've noticed it's a lot easier to write about the funny.

Harder to write about the serious.

I've been thinking about a lot of serious stuff lately, which explains my absence of fresh posts.

My mind is swirling with ideas ... but mainly, swirling with feelings ... and the thoughts surrounding those feelings.

Here are some of the things I've been thinking about ... but am not quite ready to put in the written form
  • We moved my Grandpa into an retirement community this weekend. It's amazingly beautiful. Check it out here. Lots of feelings about that. More going on then a simple move. Too personal to write. It's hard to see loved-ones with broken hearts.
  • My dad made the very difficult decision to not go on the mission trip with me. I'm sad. I understand, but I'm sad. Most importantly, my dad showed me that taking care of yourself, can sometimes be the hardest thing to do ... and the right thing to do.
  • I've been thinking a lot about what I'm going to say when I get to Africa. We've all prepared a talk about our journey with Christ. Mine is long and bumpy and painful ... and I'm very nervous to talk about it. Maybe nervous isn't the correct word. I'm honored and proud to tell a story that very few people know about and I know it will make a difference in the lives of many children and young adults in Africa. Most significantly, I know it will stretch and grow me in ways that are unpredictable. With that said, I am very nervous to be that vulnerable and transparent. I've been thinking about blogging about it first. But not sure if I want to do that either.
Anyway, those are my thoughts for the day. Deep, but meaningful and necessary ... but not always the most entertaining to read.

Much love, Lisa

2 comments:

Eve said...

No Lisa these are the best posts to read. They are real and some of us are in the very same place. Deep in our own thoughts and not sure how to write about them as well.

I can't wait to see you tomorrow!

Kelly McPherson said...

Lisa, I've been kind of struggling with the testimony part myself. Mine is very filtered....because there are parts that I don't think are that necessary to share and maybe that needs to change. I appreciate your blog post. I've been thinking about it all day!